Hi everyone I’m Ryan. Today I am blessed with the chance to share with you my testimony. In my generation, I’d think that being raised in a Christian family is not at all uncommon. Both my parents and my grandparents are faithful Christians and I have been growing up in the house of God ever since I was a child.
So why now? Why have I decided to confirm my belief now at the age of 22? I had always believed the existence of God and Jesus Christ, mostly logically though rather than faithfully. The benefits simply outweigh the cost for not believing. But believing is only the first half step. It wasn’t until University did I started really seeking him and having faith in him.
Two incidences brought me closer to God: the first one was 4 years ago when my grandma went into hospital due to a bacterial infection that has infected one of her heart valves causing it to be severely if not completely destroyed. The second incident happened 4 years after when I came half way around the world to study here in Australia. When my grandma was in hospital, I made a promise to God. I promised to testify his miracles and his powers to everyone if he would save my grandmother. My grandmother is up and healthy now but I still had not carried out my promise.
The fact that I had not kept my promise with God might be why the following 4 years of life in University was missing something. I was having fun, a lot of fun, maybe even too much fun but there was always something missing. And I don’t know why, but my relationship with God seemed to become more distant. Sometimes it even feels like I’ve completely forgotten about him, and that He has completely forsaken me for my half hearted prayers at random times did not reach him. I’ve lost my goal in life. Those were the darkest 4 years of my life. A life that felt rather meaningless and pointless.
During the last year, I knew I could not live a life like that any more. I prayed and asked for guidance everyday, asked God to set me on the path he has placed for me and help me rebuild a stronger relationship with him. He had definitely listened to all my prayers,
“You will seek me and find me; when you seek me with all your heart, I will be found by you.”
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